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Conduits of God's love

One thing that God has shown us throughout this whole process is how incredibly blessed we are to have some amazing friends and family.  It is not uncommon to hear (within the infertility community) that many infertile couples suffer feelings of loneliness in their journey.  While I can't say we are entirely immune to those feelings, they've never been able to really take over because our hearts have been filled with the love of some magnificent people.

I have friends who have been praying for us for almost two years, after my tearful admission in their living room one night.  I have one friend in particular who rises in the wee hours of the morning to pray for all kinds of people, and I have been on her list every day for over a year.  I have a friend who has been walking this tumultuous path alongside me, and we share each other's frustration, pain, and hope.  I even have some friends who had been postponing their own family plans until we completed our treatment.  And these are just a few examples of how people have touched our lives.

All of this love began to overflow the day we got to share our joyful news.  With every (literal) shout of rejoice, every bear hug, every tear, and every on-the-spot prayer from friends, family members, and pastors alike, we were reminded how very un-alone we are.  God has manifested his own unending love for us in the words and actions of the people He has placed in our lives.

My heart is literally overcome with gratitude toward our loved ones, and with praise toward the Father of the universe who, for some reason, has chosen to show me He loves me in such a practical way.
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