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At long last...

A glorious positive!  PRAISE THE LORD!



To say that I was surprised is an understatement.  I was shocked, and am still slightly in disbelief.  Here's the story:

Doctors instruct you to wait a full 14 days after an IUI to take a home pregnancy test, due to the fact that one of the medications for IUI is the actual pregnancy hormone that the test detects.  Waiting the full amount of time is supposed to ensure that the "artificial" hormone is out of your system so you don't end up with a false positive.

So... as I neared the end of my eternal 2-week wait, I became convinced that I was not pregnant.  All hints of early pregnancy symptoms were absent (and still are), and I started feeling "that way" late Wednesday night.  Mike and I even had a talk on Thursday about what our plan was going to be moving forward.

Friday morning (test day) rolled around, and all I could think about while pushing myself out of bed was how I just needed to get the test over with so I could put this cycle to rest.  So, rolling my eyes, I did my thing and prepared myself for the inevitable "not pregnant" that I would be seeing in the next 2-3 minutes.  I began brushing my teeth to pass the time, occasionally glancing down at the blinking hourglass on the pee stick.

Suddenly, it said "pregnant".  I froze, blinked a few times, and re-focused on what I was seeing.  I'm not even sure what words came out of my toothpaste-filled mouth, but suddenly I was running around the house, drooling, looking for a camera.  I was terrified that the blessed word would disappear before I had a chance to prove it was real!  Little did I know that it would stay there for a good 8-10 hours.

Later in the day, I went into Kaiser for a blood test, which confirmed the positive.  I have to go back in every three days for the same test so they can make sure things are going as planned, which is definitely a little nerve-wracking.  Thanks to the prayers of some amazing people this weekend, I have a little surge of confidence that things are going to be ok (more on my amazing friends later).

So, here we are, relieved to know that I actually can get pregnant, and feeling optimistic about the future.  Please continue praying, specifically...
- That I can focus on God's faithfulness far and above my own fear and doubt
- That our little nugget makes itself at home and grows normally for the next nine months
- For other loved ones who are struggling with infertility, that they would feel God's comfort and have success in their treatments.
For now, we are just informing immediate family and those of you who follow this blog, so please don't go blowing up my facebook page or anything. :)  We'll probably make a more general announcement around Christmas time, when I'm a little further along.

Welp, here goes!  Wish us luck!

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